thanks lovely xoxo

this was sweet. thank you so much xox

this is really old. we broke up ages ago but yeah, it was hard and i felt crap afterwards.

this is actually amazing coming from anybody. im in the best mood and this has just added to it. i think next time you see me at school say hi because you seem like such a lovely person <3

Even though my mom and I fought today I feel amazing. Things seem to be going so well; i feel alright about my looks, my friendships are going well, and school is great! I guess i was just in a depression phase. I have to say, it was a terrible feeling and i never want to be that sad ever :) Thanks so much Lord for letting me be happy.

Bestfriends talking about their soon to be boyfriends. Me being nowhere noticed, just the usual. It’s okay. Not like I matter.

Okay, 

1. I met these two guys with my bestfriends on Friday night and and of course they go to both of them and not me.
   I don’t think my friends even know how much it hurts me when they talk about how much they like them and how they like them back. I want to scream and cry at the same time. When they talk about how they met up with them and all the cute things they did together it makes me want to stab myself.
2. I was invited to a sleepover with them and of course they were a cuddling with the guys and I was sitting on the floor, by myself, like a fucking idiot. 
   That night I felt even more ugly than I usually feel. I was told a girl at my school called me fake and so I started crying even though it didnt even hurt that much, I guess I just needed an excuse to pour my eyes out.
3. I feel disgusting.
   When I say disgusting, I mean it. I feel gross and yuck and upset with my face. It’s an awful feeling and I feel even more horrible because God gave me a face that was normal, with no distortions, no nothing; but I still feel ugly. I can’t even describe how upset I am with everything. I think my grades are dropping and of course my bestfriends grade are going up. They’re so much more beautiful, much much much more and it makes me cry. The worst thing is even when I think I look normal or decent or even pretty everyone else doesn’t see it. Sometimes people would ask if I’m sick and I kind of think to myself, ‘am I that ugly that I look like I’m dying?’. I have practically no boobs and get mocked for it by everyone, sometimes they joke around and pretend like they can’t see nothing and ask, when i say i need to go bra shopping, why. It really hurts and I’m hurting more than anything. I feel sick. Sick to my stomach about everything.

That is only half of what I can express now. I just want someone to look at me and say I’m pretty. Everyday I hope someone would just stare at me and tell me something nice and meaningful. But no, I’m not pretty or special or beautiful or hot or gorgeous. I’m nothing. Just Angela, an ugly, 13-year-old loser.

(Source: piece-O-happiness)